Chaotic

My life seems chaotic at the moment. I'm not sure what I'm doing. I feel that this thesis all of a sudden was just here ready to be written. But I wasn't ready. Everything is happening so fast and I have absolutely no idea what the hell I'm doing. I'm not this person that everybody seems to think I am. I'm supposed to hand in the first chapter of my thesis in four days. And I'm not even sure what I'm writing about. But everybody treats me like I do... I've been invited to a big international fertilizer company (by the communications director) to discuss funding for my project. I have half-way (or at least I think so) been given the possibility to look into a internship in the UN. I'm supposed to know what I'm doing by now. Everybody else seems to think I do. So why don't I?

Am I supposed to be grown up now? Responsible? Intelligent? Focused? I don't feel like any of the above. I just want to have fun. To meet some people. To talk to some people. To maybe learn something new about the world. Is it too much to ask for?

Work, work, work

I've been pretty busy lately and it's not getting any better. In the next two weeks I have three papers to turn in(two term papers and the first chapter of my thesis), one application for a grant (for my field work) and one final exam! But that will also be my last exam for a long, long time... years! Hopefully.

I've mostly been studying, but I've also had a few trips up to Bodoe¸ to attends some meetings. I love going up there, but I don't do anything academic. But it has been nice to back to my wonderful apartment. I've actually stared doing my household chores more often than I used to... Just because it's all mine:) I won't be going back for about six weeks now. I'll have to finish up all my work here in Oslo first, and then I head out on a new adventure. Which reminds me...

1. I need to get a new passport
2. I need to buy some tickets (for travel within the US)
3. I need to get my international student ID card
4. I need to figure out a budget... somewhat at least...

Okay, so back to work, on both the academic stuff and on the adventure stuff.